And then sometimes, things happen. Things where your stupid heart completely gets in the way of whatever you may be feeling about particular situations. You soften. You turn to God and he still says that maybe it's not time. It's the most confusing thing there is. God hates D. says it all over the bible, however, mine would be biblically justified.
Maybe I need to change too, I know that i'm not the best to be around. The only thing that I can do now is wait. Take no actions with the big D. just wait.. Pray. Live for God. Make God my husband and rely on him.
Gotta go to class now. Droning boring class.